That was kind of a disaster. I mean, it won't hurt the book, and the segment was fine, but I think I was pretty terrible. I just tried to listen back and can't listen for more than 30 seconds without wanting to punch the wall, so I shut it off. I know I was much, much better toward the end of it, once I was a little more comfortable and wasn't totally freaked out by the whole thing. I was surprised how they do it -- I assumed you get to meet the interviewer, talk for a few minutes, get a sense of what kinds of things they want you to talk about, maybe some practice in the microphone to check levels. But it's much simpler than that -- they had me sit outside the studio until the break right before my segment, then they ushered me in, told me to put the headset on, where the volume control was, and I was on the air. I guess that works if you've done this before. The interviewer was really good, and they went to callers pretty quickly, which took the load off of me to talk, so I appreciated that. The callers were good. I thought that after all of the phone interview stuff I've done, and because the AOL podcast they haven't posted yet actually went really well, I would be less nervous and better at this, but I wasn't. The one thing I wanted to try and do was take my time, take a deep breath and think about an answer before starting to talk, but in the moment I couldn't do it. I kept jumping the gun and talking before I knew what I wanted to say, and then realizing mid-sentence that I had nowhere to go, and then I ended up getting flustered and that only feeds into itself and makes it worse. I can't really beat myself up over it though. The segment overall was fine, I'm sure it doesn't matter, and if it meant that the publicist didn't run back to her office eager to book me on some more of these, I'm not sure that's such a terrible thing. With practice, I'm sure I'd be better at this, but, I don't know, before the next one I should have them do some mock ones and let me get a little comfortable with it. Or at least I should try and find a way to have them let me meet the host first and chat for 5 or 10 minutes, just to get some sort of connection and make me a little more at ease in the chair. No one's fault, except mine, but, shit, that wasn't very much fun. Eh, I had a good lunch, I'm going to watch some TV and take a nap and do some writing. I'm sure it's been fairly obvious here that the muse hasn't been terribly active in the past couple of months, but I kind of feel like I'm getting able to get past this Anonymous Lawyer stuff in my head and really start playing around with a bunch of things that are percolating. More later. Feeling something is good, even if it's frustration. Good for writing.