I watched way too much baseball today. The MLB Extra Innings free preview week is actually the biggest reason I don't buy the Extra Innings package -- having all the games available for a week shows me how much I'd watch if I had them all year, and scares me into not subscribing. I did subscribe back in 2001, when I lived in Texas, worked for a software company, and since I actually had a job in an actual office, I didn't have to feel guilty if I watched more baseball games than I should have when I came home. Then again, in the 18 months I lived in Texas, I probably wrote more than I've written in any eighteen-month period since. Ah, the productivity fueled by loneliness, boredom, and the crushing unachieved ambitions of a kid right out of college who absolutely couldn't convince himself that all he was meant to do was work in marketing for a software company in Texas. Boy, that feels like a long time ago. Sort of. Yet as I think about it, I've kind of taken a seven-year journey back to a very similar emotional place. Hmmm. I should fix that. I'm not sure I know how. This post is becoming cryptic. Sorry. Let me sort out what I mean in my head first and maybe I'll blog more about it tomorrow.